Musical Monologue

Life is crap.

I know I haven't blogged in a while, but I really just had no idea what to say. I've had so much happen over the past few months. We lost our baby, Shawn's job was cut back, Abbey started school, and our house flooded. Yeah. My life has been on the sucky side. I must say I've grown quite fond of the Life is crap line of stuff that mocks Life is good. I can relate.
I'm trying to get motivated to get back to into life and come out of my bubble that I've been living in the past few months. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today.

(okay, I was trying to find a life is crap tshirt/logo pic to put here, but my stupid internet isn't working. Maybe later) <----see.....crap

A poem

I found this on the internet last week and it made me feel better, so now I'm sharing it with you.


WHAT MAKES A MOTHER?

Written by Jennifer Wasik
In memory of Zachery Wasik.

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"

What ever happened to.....

I was grocery shopping at Ingles today and noticed something odd as a prize from a Frosted Cheerios box....A coupon for a free haircut! What ever happened to the cool toy prizes we used to get as a kid??

Mommy, can I change my name...

Yesterday was a very eventful day. It started as I woke up that morning, soon to be met by horrible thunderstorms and tornado warnings. The scary part was the thunder that would just keep thundering beyond the normal few seconds that had me second guessing if it was actually thunder. Not fun. After all that excitement ended, I went to my moms and put together her new grill, for that I should get a medal. Not because I was nice to put it together, but because it was tough to put together. Finally, after dinner without Shawn (he worked late), Abbey and I went to the gym. I ran my 3.1 miles in the start of my prep for my upcoming 5k that I still haven't signed up for yet. That's today's to do list.
After leaving the gym, Abbey had a dilemma. She has a friend at the gym named Aurora, just like Sleeping Beauty. Abbey was quite upset that she didn't have a Disney princess name and wanted to know why I didn't name her after a Disney princess. She continued to ask which princess she could change her name to and to hurry because she has to tell her friend her new name when we got to the gym the next time. Ugh, I hate deadlines!


One more thing, I googled "Asheville chamber 5k" and my husbands blog came up on the first page! He was excited, how funny is that!

Abbey hearts Sierra!

We are HUGE Survivor addicts. Really. Never miss an episode. Imagine our delight when our 5 year old actually wants to watch it with us! She sat down and watched it one night and immediately started cheering on this 23 year old girl named Sierra. Why? Because Abbey thought her name was beautiful. Every Thursday since then, she loyaly watches with us and cheers Sierra on through the challenges and tribal council. Until tonight. Sierra was voted out. Abbey cried for 5 minutes. Really cried. This is the reason reality tv and 5 year olds don't mix.

Abbey will miss you, Sierra!

Trying to readjust to normal life.

It seems like just yesterday that I was cruising to exotic destinations, no responsibilities, everything I could possibly want at my fingertips...Sigh...It's been so hard readjusting. I'm so disorganized at the moment, and if you know me, you know that is definitely not me. I'm extremely organized. I'm still not unpacked. I just can't get motivated to put the last few things away. Or to do anything for that matter. I miss vacation.